I believe in a dream, a dream that seems to bleed, indeed it hurts and screams, dyin' slower than them, but livin' faster so when, its that time, will I shine?, or get fooled by my own mind, I say not, cause I am my own control, personality traits that I stole, help me take hold, of eyes that hold despize, like when you smile knowin' you wanna cry, courage discouraged, caused this, surged agression, im releasin' cause im testin', myself to know, only to know, that I can get mine and go, and nobody can stop me, everybody got me, thinkin' like them, but see now its time to swim, risin' above, with a mind in love, with love, always lovin' what I cant have, born into a trap, everybody on crack, body gettin' slack, stayin' off track, tryin' to get on the one I belong, writing lonely songs, just so I can wake up and carry on, and if you hear this, I fear its, too late, cause I have to take my words for real and to a higher level, rebel' against the devil, or join the wagon and meet the dragon, life is all about choices, but nobody ever gave me the choice, to get what I want, all illusions, born to die, ripped apart but still cant cry, so who decides, what happens in my life?, I dont know but I will, had to grow just to kill, the pain, mamma want you see, want you see what you and Mike did to me, please look, body shookin' soul tookin', cause ya'll were stupid, make'n fucked up decisions, put me in a mental prison, all those years of bitchin' all those years of wishin', is all comin back now, and I say fuck it all, Just fuck everything and take my small, ideas, and run like hell, nothing and nobody cares, so I gotta do somethin', tired of runnin', im so tired but not expired, just retired from the life you gave me, nobody can shoot me, cause im special, edition now its time for me to start bitchin' and begin gettin' the things ive been wishin' and not to mention this is my life, all my life, let me live, let me learn, but be fair, be honest and I want burn, cause I was only born in a world that gave me this point of veiw, and if God will help me, Ill get whats due, He's true, So He will, give me the real deal, the better life, no, but the best life.

Thats my dream
The Best Life
6-2000
(copied in exact form as previously written by me in June of 2000)